OnJanuary31,2020,mybrotherJuanManueldied,asphyxiatedinhisbed.IthadalltheearmarksofbeingCovid,butweweren'tinquarantineyet.Noautopsywasdone... OnMarch31,2020,mybrotherJosédiedofCovid-19;Thisdeathwascertifiedtous. Theybothlivedwithathirdbrother;Pablo,oneofmylittlebrothers,ananonymouscharacteroftheMadridscene.Aplasticartistwholosthislifeandwasdiagnosedwithparanoidschizophreniawitha65%disability.Wemadeadocumentarytogetherabouthisissuein2014. Ilivedwithgreatfear,almostpanic,thehelplessnessofPablolockedupinthefamilyhomesurroundedbyhismonsters,inabsolutesolitudenow,inthefirstdaysofthestateofalarm.Ilet4daysgobyandskippedconfinementbycrossingthemostghostlyMadridIhaveeverknown.Ishowedupatwhatusedtobemyparents'house,fullofpain,tryingtomanageanewduelwithouthavingovercomethepreviousone. TothefearthatPablo'sdisabilitywouldhavedestroyedhim,itaddedthefearofthealarmgenerated,ofinfectingmethroughobjects,thehouseormyownbrother.IfoundamuchmorecompletepersonthanIexpected.-I'maloneinthehouseofthespirits-hetoldmewhenIleft...Iknewthatforhimtosurvivethere,Ihadtodestroythehouseandcreateanewone. Thisisthatstory,yours,mine,thesameasthatofsomanypeoplearoundtheworld.Thestoryofdueltransformedintocreation.